LR: Learning my Lesson

I wrote an FR a month or two ago about not pulling the trigger. I wrote that in a few months, I would look back on the FR and see how far I'd come. Well... here ya go:


It's eleven oclock at night. I'm horny. There's a chick who I haven't hung out with for awhile that I want to hang out with, and I wouldn't be sad about the lay either. I look on my phone, whoops, new phone, don't have her number. Look on AIM, whoops, don't have her screenname. Go on facebook, get her screenname.

halffull (10:39:20 PM): Boo!
HbDancer (10:39:55 PM): hey!!
HbDancer (10:40:00 PM): who s this?
halffull (10:40:04 PM): Matt
halffull (10:40:08 PM): What's up?

HbDancer (10:45:30 PM): what about you?
HbDancer (10:45:54 PM): you assume things...like the fact that you just assumed i judge people[/color]
halffull (10:45:58 PM): you judged me.
halffull (10:46:09 PM):
halffull (10:46:22 PM): haha so you working on your paper?
HbDancer (10:46:50 PM): not really
HbDancer (10:47:03 PM): intentions of working on it, yes
HbDancer (10:47:19 PM): but...i am talking on AIM with a couple people
halffull (10:47:27 PM): haha
halffull (10:47:33 PM): yah, same with me studying
HbDancer (10:47:44 PM): awesome
HbDancer (10:47:46 PM): haha
halffull (10:47:55 PM): we're procastinating together!
halffull (10:48:01 PM): when are you going home?
HbDancer (10:48:06 PM): yea!!!
HbDancer (10:48:12 PM): tues
HbDancer (10:48:19 PM): after PV final
HbDancer (10:48:31 PM): oh, how i hate that class
halffull (10:48:32 PM): haha
halffull (10:48:39 PM): so when are we gonna hang out?
HbDancer (10:49:09 PM): when do you want to, lol?
halffull (10:50:23 PM): what room are you in?
HbDancer (10:50:35 PM): mine
HbDancer (10:50:42 PM): where else would i be?
halffull (10:50:40 PM): lol I figured
halffull (10:50:42 PM): what room is that?
HbDancer (10:51:05 PM): if you cant find it, then i dont know if i can help you
HbDancer (10:51:09 PM): haha
halffull (10:51:14 PM): haha you don't know the number?
HbDancer (10:51:30 PM): 310
HbDancer (10:51:35 PM): where are you?
halffull (10:51:44 PM): my room
halffull (10:51:49 PM): I'm gonna come visit you
HbDancer (10:52:07 PM): ok


I walk over to her dorm in the snow, it's freezing, it's 11:30 at night.

Wait until somebody comes to let me in, head up to her room.

We fluff a bit, I sit down on her bed.

Halffull: Come sit.
Hbdancer:Ok

She sits way the fuck away from me. We fluff for about two minutes, and at the end we're sitting side to side. I claw, makeout. Start kissing her neck, pin her against the bed. makeout some more, shirt off. Bra off, go for the pants. LMR LMR LMR LMR LMR.

I try various LMR tactics for a half hour. Eventually, the real reason comes out: "I don't want you to be weird afterwords... I don't know what you're looking for"

I've been taking a J. Soporno frame recently, and I verbalize it:
"Well, I want to continue to be friends... but the best part of friendship is sex"

Pants come off. More foreplay, start fingering. She's been raped before. this is hard for her. She's messed around with guys since then but has never had sex. I tell her I wont do anything she doesnt want. Get a condom, stick it in. I go soft after like two minutes. Make out some more.

Then I tell her we're studying. Exams in two days. We study, then start messing around again.

It's six AM, time to go. I leave.

Lessons:
Run the train.
Condoms Suck.